Wow.

Happy tears. I have never cried them before, until now. This whole week has been a slew of hospital appointments and entailed a giant bundle of nerves... and now? Now it all just melts away. All of my fears and worries, all the things I was afraid of.. and now *poof* gone. Good news. VERY good knews; not being in the one percent of everything that could ever go wrong. I am a happy healthy person, just like you.

I recieved my scan results yesterday from my infectious disease specialist, and a confirmation of the good news from my orthopedic surgeon today. The WBC scan I has done earlier this week shows no signs of active infection! The bone infection is gone even after stopping antibiotics for two and a half months. I do not know what the future will bring, if the infection is dormant, or if it will ever come back, but right now I am normal, happy, healthy. Something I have not been in seven years. Just like that *bam* I am no  longer sick. For the first time in years I am not worried. How long this will last I do not know. Perhaps weeks, months, years? But I a do not care. I am so happy! My best guess is that the news I got today had not fully sunken in yet. I thought it had, but no. I went to shower, a wonderful relaxing thing after a week of anxiety. I stood under nearly burning hot water for a long time, and then dried off and put on my pajamas. Minutes later my mom and brother arrived home. I walk into the kitchen to say hello and make myself a cup of tea, and just like that I was crying. Crying and smiling and laughing and feeling all my worries melt away. I never understood what it meant to cry happy tears, but now I do. For the first time in seven years I feel fully at peace, that absolutely nothing is wrong. I do not know if this is permanet or temporary, but I am going to make the best of it. For the first time in what feels like ever I am going to sleep peacefully.

Ps. I shall have a proper update posted soon, explaining the last few months and esp. the past few weeks.