Tomorrow, tomorrow, I'll love...

 ... my leg tomorrow... depending on the results that is.

I get my scan results tomorrow morning when I see my infectious disease speacilsit. I would really like some good news... what I will do next e.g. in regards to school, really depends on those results. I have already decided that if the infection is gone I will only take two courses first semester so that I can also focus on finishing off the last academic year and getting better. Thankfully I will still be on schedule to graduate when I had planned too! (That's the wonderful thing about taking five years to complete a four year degree... time wise I can afford to be ill for some of it). If someone had told me a year ago that I would feel as sick as I do now, after 12 months of antibiotics, I would not have believed it. But wow. One year really makes a big difference in how you feel. I know that I felt terrible last year due to the infection, but I think I feel almost as terrible now due to the antibiotics.

I don't really know what to expect as I have started having bone pain again, all of twelve week after surgery.

I would cross my fingers for luck, but this really isn't down to luck at all. The results have been in for at least  week now, so the only difference between the present and this time tomorrow is my knowing those results. It's not like they will magically change between tonight and 9:30 tomorrow morning! There is nothing I can do to make them any different. As I recall posting when I started this blog - "It's not as if  I have a time turner like Hermione Granger and can magically jump forwards ten days." Just because I wait doesn't mean I want to. Rather I shall prepare my self for the worst, and jump for joy if it is anything better.

Oh, to be bone infection free would be a beautiful thing...