Let's face it, being sick all the time isn't fun for anyone. Sure, you get the odd perks, like being able to sleep in without nosy parent berating you for sleeping the day away, or not having to do as many chores as your siblings. And you can often get more time to hand in assignments and write exams, resulting with jealous and, may I add, healthy students claiming 'it just isn't fair'. But really, those few perks are far between all the nasty treatments and periods of feeling yucky, and not worth the cost of being ill at all. Personally, I would rather have written my final exams with my fellow students back in April and had the rest of the summer to myself, but instead I had surgery and am now stuck playing the catch-up game. It would be great fun to go to the beach with my friends, but my medication makes me burn badly very quickly. It's a no brainier for me to stay inside. For me, being chroniclly ill sucks, but hey, I will let all the healthy people decide for themselves. Write exams and hang out with your friends all summer, or write your exams later but stay inside, alone for four months. I would be really interested to hear their choices and reasoning.
I think that anyone reading this will agree that chronic illness sucks, but I also think that those of us living with chronic illness(es) have our own, almost warped sense of humor and fun. Remembering that we are still people with lives beyond our illness(es) can be difficult when we are in pain, are frustrated with the medical system, curse are bodies for not doing what are minds want, or are just plain old fed up with everything. I have been having a lot of these 'I've had it!" moments recently. Things have really been piling up - the cumulative effects of all the antibiotics, pain and small sores on my shin, waiting... always waiting for tests and results, all my school work I am behind on, and now the impending divorce of my parents.
So what I'm going to do it make a list. A list of all the things that make me smile and laugh and forget the terribleness of being ill. I am going to start recording the things about being ill that, although shitty, make me smile. As warped as it sounds, I want to record the 'fun' parts about being ill. My goal will be to get to twenty.
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