There's lots of things I would like relating to work. Most of all - to be able to move from days shifts to night shifts and still feel well rested. When I was a student, it was really easy for me to transition between days and nights. I could easily do a set of days shifts, stay up really late and then sleep all days to switch over to nights. But now that I'm an actual nurse, I am struggling. Despite staying up until the crack of dawn on Wednesday morning, my body only let me sleep until noon. I was up all afternoon, unable to nap, and then went in for a night shift. Four o'clock in the morning hit like a giant wall of overwhelming sleepiness but I somehow fought it off and finished my shift. I got home, so exhausted that I was entirely certain that I would be able to get a solid eight plus hours of deep sleep, and then.... I tossed and turned the entire time, waking up every few hours, and now that I am up I feel generally icky and tired. I'm not sure how tonight's shift will go. I've also been getting horrible headaches at work - sometimes to the point that I feel nauseous. I'm not sure if it's stress related or maybe something in the hospital I am allergic too (I had them when I completed my final clinical placement as well). Either way it sucks.
On top of that, my leg hurts. Not just hurts. It hurts a hell of a lot. I'm limping down the hallways and find my self wondering how I will ever get through my probation period. I wonder if it wouldn't just be better to loose the job and have surgery on my leg sooner. I wonder if all this walking will just makes my leg worse. I hope that is not the case...
Anyways, more pictures. Taken sometime early this morning (sixth shift). Comfy sweaters make night shifts better. Maybe I'll try to make some tea at work tonight. I'll also bring a book to fill those early morning hours. As along as that one creepy patient doesn't smirk at me again when I have to change his brief, tonight should be okay (I swear he enjoys it...).
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