I am going to sign my life away. Ok. That is actually being a bit dramatic, but that is how it feels sometimes. In reality I will just be signing the consent forms for surgery number five. But it is not "just signing" some forms. This is for the big scary ex fix surgery that will hopefully allow me to regrow my tibia and get me up and walking again. I miss walking. Have a mentioned that before? Well, I do. I miss being able to walk without crutches and the fear that the bone cement could give out on me every time I take a step. I miss being able to carry a cup of tea to my room. Or take a shower without a garbage bag taped around my leg. Or to even be able to stand in the shower. Or a million other things I would take for granted given any other situation. So signing those forms tomorrow is kind of a big deal.
Before going to bed, my mum said "You couldn't care less about this appointment, could you?"
My reply? "Yup, don't care at all."
Because as much as I want to walk again and get back to normal life, I don't want more surgery and I definitly don't want the external fixator. I just want to stick my head in the sand for a while.
On a much brighter note, I got my hair cut last week Friday. Over the last year or so, every time it started to grow out a bit I would vow to let it keep gorwing, but every time it reached that horrible mullet like stage in the back I would cave in and got it cut. Short hair looks better on me anyways.
That's really it for now. One of my mum's friends came over this afternoon, so that was a nice distraction for a few hours, and I am seeing a friend from university on Sunday. I haven't seent him since graduation over a year ago, so it will be nice to catch up. Most of the time we end up playing phone tag. And tomorrow mum and I will do soemthing fun after the appointment at the hospital like go to Ikea or take the scenic route home. It makes for good stresss relief after appointments that are usually pretty stressfull. I would much rather stay at home and work on my cross stitch project though. Already working on square eight of twenty. Original goal was to get ten done, so it is coming along great. Once I finish the tenth I will blog about it here.
Me today. Still really loving my hair cut XD
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