Still Awake

A really quick thought in the wee hours of the morning. When I found out that I would be having surgery in March, I new that it would happen soon. And soon meant within the next one to two weeks. I got lucky and had it done a mere seven days later. Before that surgery I posted something about wondering if there is an ideal time to have to wait before surgery. A week was not that ideal time frame - it gave me way to much time to think, to consider what could go wrong and how much I actually didn't want surgery. This time around, I have even less time - five days. Between finding out that I would need surgery and having the surgery itself, there are about 120 hours. That's not very much time (and I haven't been counting them this entire time! Don't worry, I haven't lost my mind like that quite yet). That's hardly any time at all. It took a good day and a half to two days just to process everything, which brought us to Sunday. Then there was a day of two of realizing what was going to happen, lets say half of Sunday and all of Monday. Which brought us to Tuesday when surgery was pretty much upon us - no more time to think, just get on with it. To be honest, I slept through mos the day anyways. And now it's almost time to head to the hospital (a little under three hours). I hated waiting a week; there was way too much time to think. But anything less then three to four days wouldn't have given me much time to comprehend things. I therefore say that I think the ideal time for needing surgery fairly rapidly is to have it five days after you find out. There is obviously the chance that this is all BS or fueled by my narcotic addled brain, but I don't think so. I like five days. I can handle five days quite well. Seven is quite another matter.

And you are probably thinking, what a strange post. What a weird idea. I am rambling. I don't think I am scared or anxious, but I am a bit nervous. And I ramble when I am a bit nervous. Just think, in seven hours it will be over and in within fourteen I will be back in my own bed.

PS. Thanks for putting up with this nonsensical mess. XD